Selfish for your Thoughts
From my last trip to D.C., we stopped at a hotel where we called it a night. Somehow I managed to fall asleep pretty early only to wake up an hour later. And be up for the next 3 hours. I got to thinkin’ when I couldn’t fall back asleep. The first thing I wanted to do was grab my phone and I wondered, “Why do I feel this urge to get my phone? Is it because I want to see if I have any new texts, or messages, or comments, or likes?” Usually I don’t care too much about these things but I guess the cold claws of narcissism had dug into me. It was almost like I felt anxious that if I didn’t reply to people or have that assurance that their feelings about or toward me would change. I thought it through and came to the conclusion that those thoughts were absurd but they were there.
Then my thoughts moved to relationships. I thought about when people feel wanted, or cared about when they get those “Good morning” or “Good night” texts. I’m not saying that there is anything wrong with those, I’m just saying that people shouldn’t get upset when they don’t get those. People get busy and tired and have things to do. Sometimes they can’t shoot you a text or call you. It’s crazy the level of communication and constant attention so many people want (myself included). I think we’ve grown too needy and expectant of others to give us the attention we want. People can still love you and care about you to the ends of the Earth without constantly letting you know. Do the people you love still love you? Do you still love the people you love? Then don’t worry about it and know that they are thinking about you even without the messages. Enjoy the moment you’re in without waiting for a message on a screen. Now to catch up on some much needed sleep. Good night world…